I’m getting sober again after years of battling my own struggles with addiction. Now I’m at a time in my life where I am ready to win the war by sharing my journey of Never Tapping Out through my blog posts.I have always done my best to do what is right my whole life. At least that’s what I like telling myself everyday to be satisfied the craving of my addictions.
Despite this fact that I am now a sober man today, I’ll never escape my reality that I am still an addict. Just because I do not have drugs in my system does not mean that I am better off. After all I am an addict whom of which loves to do drugs. I would like to be sober but why would I want to do that when I can have so much more fun while I’m high.
I never want to do drugs again but all I do is think about them. My addiction made a lasting memory on me that I cannot shake fast enough. Being sober is so lame to say but it is the way thing need to be sometimes. Drugs can become boring too, usually it got boring when I had too much drugs. I am laughing while I write this, is that a twisted outlook? I prefer to say that I am just cynical to my own success.
I do not see myself getting better not matter how hard I try to do so. This is crazy because everyone says I look great! Are they lying to me to make me feel better or are they being genuine to me? I do not know and that right there just created a new struggle for my me to over come. I’ll be sober again when I tell the truths that I have kept locked away deep in my mind. So let’s start off small, below is what I truly do to help clear my mind from time to time.
During my struggle I found out that I could use strategies such as meditation to beat my addiction. I’m getting sober again and I know it will stay that way no matter how delicious the memories of my addictions might be. Meditation is as simple as putting our hands together and making that loud humming noise that is always related to meditation. The humming seems pointless (I know) but it serves the purpose of clearing your mind as well to not letting any addictive thoughts come forward. A clear mind is a happy mind and over time you will automatically notice that the addictive thoughts are not the first memory you recall anymore!