Avoiding your addiction when you are in treatment can at times be more difficult then ever imagined. Addiction is more than just having a substance abuse problem. Addiction comes with people and the memories that you begin associate the addiction over time. As a result you end up hating yourself while being upset with others because you are too blind with rage to notice that you hold the key to your own success.
If I feel that I need to be a consumer of the drugs I despise every time I am around a certain person then I left with really only two options. Either confronting that person or my own personal favorite, cutting them off completely. Though I write that last line unwillingly as it makes me hate what I have to do in order to remain sober. I say that cutting friends off is a personal favorite but that is only because I
have need to. I have tried to becoming sober before and I relapsed because of an old friend that I used to know.
Since then I have vowed to never change my date again. I do not never want to be the person I once was, he ruined my life. Even on my best of days I cannot escape the dark thoughts that rest on the foreground of my mind. One day I will happy with all of my decisions, but until then I just need to find the middle ground by sharing my thoughts and experiences with substance abuse. I say this a lot but I do really mean it, “I’m getting sober again.” Hopeful this time for good.