I have lived most of my life through curious eyes. As a child, I had a strange desire for anything that was new to me. I would desire every new toy, new candy, I even remember one time I pleaded for an entire month to have a pair of shoes with light up soles. I feel as if I am making myself sound like a spoiled child but it is quite the contrary.
Just because I said I desired owning the newest gadget does not mean that I actually got them. The truth is that as a child my family was not the most fortunate with money. This was a fact that I did not learn until quite sometime after my childhood.
Having Parents That Mostly Work
My parents really did their best to protect but as I said things were tough. That means that I was usually left alone when both of my parents left for work in the morning. It was not like I was a a bad child, I was just alone with my own thoughts that I refer to as my “curiosity.” My curiosity brought ideas about all sort of things in my head; I am honestly shocked that I did not kill myself. I was so mischievous that I would even put various items in the microwave just to see what would happen.
As much as my parents struggle to protect me, their busy lives completely preoccupied their time with too much to notice what I was doing wrong. In fact I eventually got so good at covering up my tracks that I actually taught myself how to fix the things I would break. Seriously, half of my day would be to destroy the house and the other half would be to fix it.
Covering Up Addiction
The fact that I became so good at covering my tracks as a child is what allowed me to be able to cover my addiction to drugs and alcohol. As a child covering my tracks became second nature, so naturally as an adult I had no issues with covering up my substance abuse. I wrote an article previously about when I first met my addiction back in middle school.
That day was a day that I was supposed to be home but I never went home because there was no where home to make sure that I did. I am not saying that my parents should have trusted my less. All I am saying is that if would have had a closer eye on me then maybe I would have been able to have some help combating my curiosity.